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Saturday, December 31, 2011
You're just walking around then suddenly, everything that you thought that you knew about love is gone. You find out it's all been wrong.
9:34 AM I haven't posted anything for such a long time, I'm sorry!! I have been too lazy, and too busy. :) I'm still in Whistler guys. :D Going back in 4 days. Sigh. I really don't want to leave. I'm loving it here. The skiing, the snow, the peace.... Total separation from my world in Singapore. I really don't want to go back to face school, projects, deadlines, exams and certain people. :( So anyway, today was my last ski lesson! My instructor really pushed me. Not only did we go up to the glacier, where it was snowing so heavily and the wind was so strong, even looking 10 meters ahead was a challenge. I was scared out of my mind, and 'cuz we could hardly see, we had to ski on the rocky runs, just so we could see the gradient of the slope. After that, Bob brought me to a tree run. ARGH. Was so freaked out. Skiing in between trees... You know how many stories I've heard from people about skiing into trees and injuring themselves REALLY badly?! :( My knee hurts now. :( Okay, gonna watch TV then going to Earl's for dinner. Goodbye. xx Sunday, December 25, 2011
Maybe it's be and my blind optimism to blame.
5:34 AM "For as long as long as I could remember, I had been jumping into relationships too quickly, only to feel regret just a few months later. I had developed a habit of investing too much too soon, sharing my secrets early on, professing my love after only a few weeks, only to wonder a few months later, Do I even like this guy?" - 31 dates in 31 days by Tamara Duricka Johnson Story of my life. I've just one wish on this Christmas Eve, I wish I were with you.
1:00 AM MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE! (Even though it's only Christmas eve here) I hope everyone's having a good time. Have a good Christmas guys. "Merry Christmas, darling. We're apart that's true, but I can dream and in my dreams I'm Christmas-ing with you." Goodbye. xx Saturday, December 24, 2011
Underneath the mistletoe, hold me tight and kiss me slow.
9:02 AM Okay here are my other 30 facts. :) 71. I wear contacts. 72. People have told me that I have a proud face. Especially if I don't smile. I really don't know why, and I don't know what to do, I can't smile at everyone I meet! 73. I don't smoke. I really hate cigarette smoke. The mere smell of it makes me feel like my lungs are deteriorating. I really don't know how people smoke. :S I get really pissed when people blow smoke at my face. 74. I have never gone clubbing before. Yes, I'm serious. Most people do not believe me when I tell them that, but it's true! I may go one day, but I don't really like loud and crowded places.. Or the idea of random guys touching me. So, we'll see. 75. I love pasta. Italian is my favourite cuisine. 76. I hate the rain. HATE IT. 77. I'm afraid of death. Like really afraid of it. 78. I'm also afraid of the dark. I sleep with a night light. 79. I have very protective parents. 80. I prefer the cold. I'd rather be cold than hot. I HATE sweating. 81. I sweat really easily. 82. I hate awkward silences. That's why I try my best to avoid going out one-on-one with people I'm not close to. 83. My dreams are extremely life like. I rarely dream of magical, unrealistic or nonsensical things. 84. I am self conscious about my height. I know lots of girls want to be tall, but I feel like I tower over people. :( 85. I don't like to cook. I'm always afraid I'll cut or burn myself. I need to marry someone that's good at cooking or my family will be eating out everyday HAHA. 86. I love long bus rides. 87. I'm also self conscious about my weight. I'm fat. 88. I will never get drunk because I have too many secrets to keep. 89. I open up rather easily despite my trust issues. 90. I think it's easier to be friends with guys. Less drama, and less chance that they'll steal your boyfriends. 91. I want to be a caucasian. I embrace the Western culture and the English language. 92. The only 2 things I like about myself are my eye and hair colours. 93. I am hardly ever punctual. 94. I make music videos in my head. 95. I am afraid of tickles. 96. I am very competitive. I especially hate to lose in an argument. I think I have more pride than I'd like to admit. 97. I really cannot stand insects. HATE THEM. I'm even afraid of butterflies. :S Disgusting creatures. 98. I love big earrings 99. I believe there are 2 types of cheating, physical and emotional. I have never physically cheated before. 100. I always worry about what others think of me. Yay, I'm finally done!! :) I have never done such a thing before, I usually just do those that I have questions 'cuz I'm not good at such things!! Hahaha. Hope you enjoyed reading 'em. :> Goodbye. xx Friday, December 23, 2011
I try to sleep but my eyes are open, I can't think 'cuz myheart is broken.
9:19 AM Okay, my third survey. I figured I'd post the previous 2 first as this one would probably take a longer time, and the other one was getting long. 100 facts about you: 1. I wish I had a more sophisticated name, like Sierra. 2. I love to read. 3. I buy all my books, never borrow. Unless it's for school. 4. I like happy endings, no matter how corny, cheesy or predictable. It makes me happy. 5. Movies are never quite as good as the original book. 6. I like reading just as much as watching movies. 7. I read almost the whole Enid Blyton collection at the age of 12. 8. I have more than 100 books at home, not counting all the books my mum gave away (my WHOLE Enid Blyton collection and all the books I read before I was 13). 9. I love music. Really. I have 3000 songs in iTunes. 10. When I listen to songs, the thing I look out for are their lyrics. 11. Songs help me translate what I feel into words. I post lyrics on FB, Twitter, Tumblr and my blog all the time. They give me comfort. It feels as if at least someone has felt how I'm feeling now. Someone out there understands. 12. I only listen to English songs. 13. I detest k-pop. 14. I don't listen to metal or screamo or any sort of loud, angry rock. I don't know how to appreciate classical, jazz or blues. 15. I have a new favourite song ever other week. 16. I am very selective about whom I share my songs with. 17. When I post lyrics on Facebook, I do not include the song title and artist for a reason. I hate it when people comment with those exact things. I just prefer my songs to remain anonymous and hate it when everyone else posts the same lyrics as I do. Thus I try to search for songs before anyone else do when it comes to mainstream music. 18. I torrent all my shows, I never stream. 19. I get emotionally attached to my shows. 20. I get emotionally attached too easily. 21. I get jealous really easily too. Too easily, in fact. I am just a really jealous person. 22. I am not a patient person either. I do think patience is a virtue though. 23. I am also easily angered. I am short tempered and I don't deny it. 24. I forgive easily and quickly, unless I'm very hurt, then I never forgive. 25. I never forget. 26. I am very sentimental. Songs and smell trigger memories easily. 27. I am too flawed for anyone. 28. I am very sensitive, even though I hardly show it. 29. I care about physical and exterior beauty more than I'd like to admit. 30. I believe in true love, but not fate or soul mates. 31. I want to have a traditional wedding in a church, with a priest and a poofy white dress. :') 32. I want my husband to be like my dad. 33. Family > Money 34. I think I may be a little high maintenance, even if I don't realise it. 35. I want to marry a Christian man. 36. I have serious inferiority complex. I am not skinny enough, or pretty enough. I'm too tall and awkward. 37. I like tall guys. 38. I have been cheated on 3 times, by the same guy. 39. I have gotten backstabbed by my best friend, in the worst way possible. 40. Thus, I have serious trust issues. This has been a problem ever since, when it comes to relationships. 41. No one in this world knows everything about me. I tell different people different things about myself for a reason. 42. I am not proud of it, but I can be a bitch. Just saying. 43. I never want to migrate anywhere because I don't wanna leave my parents behind. 44. I daydream most of my day away. 45. I talk to myself all the time, and I talk to my pillow at night. 46. I have a very fickle heart. 47. I have ever cheated in exams. 48. I cry very easily. Period. I am too emotional for my own good. I cry during 80% of the movies I watch. 49. I hate crying infront of people. If I cry infront of you, be honoured. 50. I hide in my toilet to cry. 51. I am afraid to like guys with too many girl friends, even though I have many guy friends myself. Yes I'm that jealous and insecure. 52. I am also a very paranoid person. I think a lot and make up worse case scenarios in my head, most of the time when I'm about to sleep. 53. I love singing, but only when I'm at home. I'm too shy to sing infront of others. 54. I don't like guys who play dota. 55. I have a fetish for guys without spectacles and those with long hair. Not long like Steven Tyler, but long like Justin Bieber/Zac Efron/Ashton Kutcher/Jesse McCartney's old hair. Is it called bowl cut? :O 56. I'm learning how to play the guitar. 57. My favourite songs to play are Into Your Arms - The Maine and Terrible Things by Mayday Parade. 58. I love chocolates. Any kind, really. Milk, white, dark, etc. 59. I love Glee and Gossip Girl. 60. I love romance. I like anything cheesy and romantic. :> 61. My dad is an architect but I like interior design. 62. I am scared of everything. I don't even watch action movies. 63. I love my parents. I know it may be embarrassing for teenagers so say so, but I really do. 64. I know this may offend some, but I don't support or approve of homosexuality. 65. I find it hard to sustain so many friendships. I love all my friends and I feel blessed to have so many of them, I just find it hard to find time for everyone. :/ I try my best though. 66. I think the movies I have watched, books I have read and songs I have listened to moulded my expectation and perception of love. 67. I never want to get a divorce. 68. My current favourite song is Start of Something Good by Daughtry. 69. I think I may come back to Whistler every year for the rest of my life because it feels like a second home. Its a family tradition I hope to be able to continue. :) 70. I love my brother, I really do. I always thank God for such a nice, kind hearted, loving brother. :') I'm very grateful that we've grown up and are close now. :) Okay I really can't think of anything else at the moment. I'll continue again soon!! :> Goodbye. xx And you touch my hair ever so slowly.
8:56 AM I am so bored. I'm going to be doing quite a few surveys now. So if you're too lazy to read surveys, I suggest you skip this post! :O Number 1: Bold what you’ve done… 0. kissed a different race other than myself 1. kissed a girl 2. kissed a boy 3. kissed in the rain 4. kissed on a ferris wheel 5. kissed underwater 6. kissed on new years 7. kissed under the mistletoe 8. kissed on 11:11 9. failed my drivers test 10. showered with someone else 11. made someone cry 12. broke someone’s heart 13. rejected someone 14. gotten rejected 15. gone skinny dipping 16. wished on a shooting star 17. wished at 11:11 18. wished on a eyelash 19. wished on birthday candles 20. had a wish come true 21. stayed up for more than 24 hours 22. had a sleepover with the opposite sex 23. slept in the same bed as the opposite sex 24. had a date to a dance 25. had a one night stand 26. had my heart broken 27. made fun of someone for being fat 28. cut myself 29. liked more than one person at the same time 30. kissed more than two people in one night 31. found something valuable on the ground 32. been bitch slapped 33. been slapped 34. been told i’m ugly 35. been told i’m worthless 36. slapped someone 37. talked to someone via webcam 38. had a virus on my computer 39. had my butt slapped by someone i don’t know 40. kissed someone i don’t know 41. have a pillow pet 42. said something i wish i could take back 43. broken up with someone 44. lost a friend 45. had a fight with someone over a guy 46. cheated on someone 47. someone cheated on someone, with me 48. sexted 49. gotten bullied via text/internet/calls 50. fell in love Number 2: So, I don't really know songs from the 90s. Bold what you like
1991 Goodbye. Thursday, December 22, 2011
No matter how many miles stand in between, in my heart is where you'll be.
1:04 PM I am so tired. Skiing really drains a lot of energy. I have no energy to continue my CRS research, thus I am here blogging. Also, I seem to be unable to come up with proper sentences. Really. My range of vocabulary has been decreasing ever since secondary school.. My grammar has been deteriorating as well. I really miss English lessons.. :( Today's skiing was quite fun, think I pushed myself a little too far though (or at least my instructor did). 2nd day on the mountain and already doing black runs? Totally not me. For 4 years I stuck to Green and Blue runs, really strictly. I only started trying Black runs last year, and that was during my second week of skiing. I fell during my last run. :( Some lady skied straight into me! The worse part was that I was already reaching the village... So stupid. I fell when I was on one of the easiest runs EVER, and not when I was on the super steep or icy ones. -.- A few seconds before I fell, I was just thinking about how I DIDN'T fall the whole day. Pfft The snow was kinda lousy today though. Hard and icy. I was sliding around most of the day. Haha. It hasn't been snowing for quite awhile, a week maybe? I hate skiing on such old snow, and because the past few days have been really warm, they couldn't even make snow (snow machines)! However, there was a sudden drop in temperature today! :O It was really cold up there, -11 degrees! So they managed to make some snow. That didn't really help though. I almost lost control of my skies a few times 'cuz of the change in snow and amount of friction. Tsk. It's supposed to snow this weekend though. I hope the forecast's right. Then I'll really have a white Christmas! :) Alright, I'm gonna continue reading my book and then back to CRS. Goodnight. xx Tuesday, December 20, 2011
Heart is so jet lagged.
6:30 AM You say good morning when it's midnight, going out in my head alone in this bed. I wake up to your sunset, and it's driving me mad, I miss you so bad. Well, I'm kinda jet lagged now. Haha. The day I first heard this song, I thought of Canada right away. Hehe. Now that I'm here, I can finally post it. ;) Goodbye. xx Sunday, December 18, 2011
When a goodbye kiss feels like this, don't you wanna stay here a little while?
11:07 AM I AM IN WHISTLER. Woohoo! It was a long 18 hour flight, probably one of the longest EVER. First our flight to Hong Kong got delayed by an hour, so we were stuck in the plane for an hour. The plane we took to Hong Kong was horrible. The in-flight entertainment sucked too. There were no movies on demand, it was the old fashion way - the one where everyone had to watch the show at the same time. Thus, I did not touch my in-flight entertainment for the 4 hour flight there. I did however, read one of the three books I brought along with me. My brother was amazed at the speed I read. Haha, 15 years being my brother and he still gets amazed. I'm actually quite happy with my fast reading pace, I think it saves a lot of time, BUT I spend more money on book 'cuz of it. I am able to read 1 book per day = 30 books per month = $600 a month if each book costs around $20. I have now limited myself to 3/4 books a month, well unless my parents are paying for the books. If so, I'll get more. :p You know how parents encourage their kids to read and are extremely happy when their kids asks them to purchase a book? Well, my parents grew out of that phase ever since I was Primary 6 and read almost the whole Enid Blyton collection. They stopped buying me books and made me pay for them myself as they said I was buying too many. :( My parents still love buying my brother books though, 'cuz when he reads... Well, its a rare occasion. Oh gosh I side tracked SO much. Now, where was I? Yes, the flight. So, we transferred to a bigger plane with better in-flight entertainment in Hong Kong. The food and shows were undoubtably better than Singapore Airline's BUT I still prefer SQ. I don't know why. Patriotism maybe? Haha. After an extremely long and uncomfortable flight, WE REACHED VANCOUVER. I did not sleep AT ALL in the plane. I wish I could be like those people who are able to fall asleep within seconds. I never seem to be able to do that. Even at home, on my own bed, I take about 30 mins to fall asleep. Evidently, it is IMPOSSIBLE for me to fall asleep on a plane. Especially when I'm sitting in economy seats, like I was just now. Horrible, staying awake throughout an 18 hour flight was excruciatingly horrible. -cringes- So, after another 2 hour drive from Vancouver International Airport, we reached Whistler. :> Amidst the cold and extreme tiredness, a hint of nostalgia kicked in. The familiar buildings, the weather, the Snow, it felt like I was finally back home. :) We reached Club Intrawest at 3pm. However check-in time was 4pm, so my mum stayed to wait while I followed my dad and bro to the village. Being the careless girl I was, I got too caught up in the snow and weather that I hurried out so quickly without putting on an extra layer. I was just wearing a cotton long sleeve shirt + my coat. I think I must have gotten accustomed to the weather over the years, or I would probably have froze. Thank goodness. Okay, so my lips are extremely dry now, and so is my face. Gotta go put some moisturizer on!! Goodnight. (it's 8pm here) xx Friday, December 16, 2011
Say goodbye and send me off with a kiss farewell.
11:21 PM Flying off in about 10 hours' time. The excitement I have been having the past few weeks just disappeared. I guess it's 'cuz now that it's time for me to leave, I don't want to. Oh well, I'm sure I'll change my mind once I see snow and feel the familiar cold air when I reach the mountain. :) Going to crash soon, have to wake up at 6am tomorrow. I doubt I will be able to fall asleep though. Anticipation. Okay, it's also 'cuz I have to force myself to sleep on the plane, even though it's REALLY hard for me to do so. I'll be reaching Vancouver in the morning, Canadian time (2am, Singapore time). So, if I want to get rid of the jet lag, I'll have to force myself to stay awhile. That means I'll be awake for more than 24 hours if I don't sleep on the plane. GAHH. :( I hate long flights. The next time you guys hear from me will be when I'm in Whistler. :) Goodnight. xx Wednesday, December 14, 2011
10:56 PM I don't speak in guarantees, or at least not the kind that you need. This is my declaration to anyone who's listening.
1:48 PM Just changed my URL. I figured that using my name as the URL was kinda weird. Okay, not so much weird, more of too conspicuous. Am I making sense? Going to Udders for ice cream with Clarence and Jeremy in an hour's time. Goodbye. xx It is getting hard to be around you.
2:06 AM So sleepy, yet not falling asleep. Blogging with my iTouch now. So many things on my mind. Too many. 4 more days till I leave. Will you miss me? Monday, December 12, 2011
I've been so blind to all that I have broken.
12:42 AM I feel like such a mess! Really have got to get my head together, accounting tomorrow. Concentrate Sara, concentrate. Earlier today I was taking a look at a random person's old blog posts, and I realised that the way we blog and the contents of our posts really influence the impressions formed of us by people that may not know us too well. While reading Person A's old blog posts, I discovered another side of her/him that I never knew before. Granted, I do not actually know that person well. Therefore, impression formed and changed. I wonder how some people think of me now, or how people that have read my old blog had thought of me. My secondary school blog, I mean. The way I post here, and the way I posted there differ by quite a bit. I don't relay my personal life on my blog anymore. No more posts of my day to day life, I don't talk much about where I've been, or what I did. I guess I just prefer a more private life now, not wanting the world to know what I've been up to. I started this blog without telling anyone, with the exception of Hui Juan, of course. I don't need extreme privacy, thus it's not locked. However, I don't want too many readers, unlike my previous blog... So yes this blog isn't a secret but I'd prefer it to be kept low profiled. Heh. :) Reading old blog posts now, I wonder if I have really changed since then, or if it's just the way I blog that has changed. I feel wiser, stronger and more mature somehow, but what if it's an illusion? What if I'm still the small clueless girl I was two years ago? Fickle and emotionally unstable. Goodnight. xx Sunday, December 11, 2011
And when you fall apart, am I the reason for your endless sorrow?
12:12 AM I'm back! Just two more days till temporary freedom! ;) I have an accounting exam on Monday, and I will be a free bird till 4th Jan!! Well, I have a project meeting on Monday after the exam.. So I'll be free after that. :) OH, I GOT MYSELF A NEW ITOUCH. Tee hee. 64gb of wonderful memory. I got it 'cuz my old iTouch was dying and 32gb just wasn't big enough for me. My songs took up more than half of the memory, thus not enough space for apps + videos. >:( Initially I wanted the white one, but to my mum's delight, there was none in stock. :( PLUS, I really couldn't wait any longer, so I got the black one. My mum was insisting on the black iTouch 'cuz she claims that it won't get dirty as quickly as the white one probably will. Oh well. I'm leaving for Canada next Saturday at 10am. So by this time next week.. I'd probably be on the plane, 'cuz it's an 18 hour flight. I hate long flights and their transits. I hate getting off the plane and getting onto another one. Pfft. It'll all be worth it when I reach Canada though!! :') I wonder if Vancouver will welcome me with some snow or if I'll have to wait till I get to Whistler. We'll be going straight up to Whistler this year, so no staying in Vancouver, and that means no shopping. :( I think it won't really make that much of a difference this year though, I don't really have anything in mind. I just have to buy a pair of Uggs. :) They look so comfy and inviting. I'm getting all excited again! This is the first time ever I'm REALLY REALLY looking forward to Canada. I know, everyone's gonna be like "HOW CAN YOU EVER NOT LOOK FORWARD TO CANADA?" Truth is, I just never enjoyed not being able to talk to my friends 'cuz I can't really text all the way from Canada! Okay, I do text when I'm there, and am always greeted with a hefty bill of $500 or more. -.- SO YEAH, I dreaded being separated from the world. THIS YEAR, however, I'm kinda looking forward to it. I'm looking forward to the peace that comes with being in a resort and just being together with my family. The cool air and snow will help me clear my head. :) Goodnight. xx Wednesday, December 7, 2011
5:55 PM Exhausted. Saturday, December 3, 2011
I'm the only one who'll walk across the fire for you.
10:49 PM I SURVIVED THIS WEEK. YAY hahaha. ONE more stressful week to go though.. I have already planned my week!! Gonna do TTB tomorrow and spread out my CSIT essay throughout the week. 500 words per day, maybe? Plus I won't be able to do anything on Wednesday. SIGH. My blog posts all seem to be about me ranting about schoolwork. I really don't have time to blog anymore. The only show I have watched this week was Glee. I will never miss Glee. Ever. HOWEVER, I watched it ONE DAY late. Can you believe it? I. NEVER. WATCH. GLEE. LATE. Hahaha okay I'm being ridiculous but really, what happened to poly being relaxed and slow-paced? :( Gosh, I'm hungry. Think I didn't eat enough at the housewarming. I can't wait for Canada. 17 December, please arrive as quickly as possible. I need an escape. LIKE NOW. I know running from my problems won't do any good, but it's the easiest way. I just need some time to clear my head. Urgh, sorry this blog post is so messy and that I jumped from one topic to another. When my head's a mess, everything I touch turns into a mess too. Goodnight. xx |
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