You be the anchor that keeps my feet on the ground; ♥
SARA I like beautiful melodies telling me terrible things. Tumblr & October 2011 November 2011 December 2011 January 2012 February 2012 March 2012 April 2012 May 2012 June 2012 July 2012 August 2012 September 2012 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Saturday, February 18, 2012 Down the road the sun is shining, in every cloud there's a silver lining. Just keep holding on. 6:12 PM And the crazy weekend packing commences. So, I was packing and it suddenly struck me how much of a sentimental person I really am. There are things sitting around my house that I have not touched in years and they really bring back memories. I am having a really hard time packing as I can't seem to be able to pick out things to throw away. Everything, even things I have not looked at in ages, seem so precious and special of a sudden.  Most people are good at picking out things they need or want and putting aside the rest, never looking back. I find it almost impossible to do such a thing. Give me choices, and I have no idea how to make a decision. I really do not know how people are able to choose something and never look back to think about the opportunity costs, the "what-if"s, how things might have been if they had taken the other fork in the road. I know there is no such thing as having the best of both worlds and if you hold on to two things/people at once, you are bound to lose both of them. It's just, how do you make a choice without regret? How do you not look back? I mean, I'm not saying that I have that many regrets, I just have a habit of looking back. I save all I can from my past. I have a whole drawer full of rings, letters, hearts and random knicks-knacks from different people through out the years. I can't bring myself to throw any of them away even though most of those people don't mean that much to me anymore. Most of them are just acquaintances and people I barely talk to. Nevertheless, I think that they were important my life once and all had a part in moulding me into who I am today. Basically, those were significant "souvenirs" I received from people who once meant the world to me. See, relationships and friendships are funny things. Think of someone that means everything to you right now, in a few years, or even months, this person may become just someone you pass by in the hallway. I'm not trying to be pessimistic or anything here, I just.. I don't know. It really is just confusing how these things happen and why they happen. It's like a vicious cycle and it is slowly making me more afraid than ever to open up to people. I hate being vulnerable, I hate having my happiness controlled by someone else. The scariest thing though, is that most of the time, what happens isn't anybody's fault. People change, circumstances change, flames die down. In the beginning, things always seem exciting, captivating, thrilling and sometimes even addictive. You get so preoccupied with this one person that nobody and nothing else seems to matter anymore. One day however, things will slow down. You will begin to withdraw yourself, no long being filled with anticipation or excitement. With time, this once all-consuming person becomes just someone you know and when you look back, you will not be able to pinpoint the moment when things started to turn around. And really, it isn't anyone's fault. Things like this are inevitable and unexplainable, it just happens. I've been through so many friendships like this, and ended up either getting hurt or hurting someone else. Sometimes I wonder if it's really worth it? But then again, no one really wants to be alone. Wow okay, how did talking about packing bring me all the way here? I'm so sorry for making you read that whole bunch of stuff. Well, then again, who asked you to? :p Hahaha. ___________________________________ Okay I just have one more thing to say to my best friend. (So the rest of you really don't have to read this.) I know you are going through a really bad period now, and I know you have a huge decision to make. Believe me, I've been there.. And I'm sure you know that, since you were there for me through out the whole episode. You gave me a lot of good advice while I was going through that period, and now you have almost an identical problem. Needless to say, I really don't think I am fit to guide you and to help you solve the issue.. You were the one with all the solutions. Haha. Just remember, I know choosing between two people is never easy and you may be thinking of taking the easy way out by trying to hold on to both of them for as long as you possibly can.. But you know that's never going to work and you're going to end up losing and hurting everyone. In all honesty though, you know what they say. "If you are in love with two people, always choose the second. 'Cuz if you were really in love with the first you wouldn't have fallen for the other." It ultimately is your choice though. I know you'll make the right one. :) Here are two quotes from How I Met Your Mother that made me think of you: ‎"I don't wanna be choosing between two girls, I wanna be a complete head over heels idiot for one." - Ted Mosby ‎"If you have chemistry, you only need one other thing- timing, but timing's a bitch." - Robin Scherbatsky You always dedicate blog posts to me and your other friends when they need cheering up, so this is for you. I love you and I will always be here for you. <3 <3 Goodbye. xx
♥ I'll be the wings that keep your heart in the clouds.